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Sunday, November 12

Officially Sunday

Ar. I've moved to Blogger beta but I don't really feel the difference as of now. Anyway, today is SoonHwee's birthday and I guess he really had a great time with his primary school mates. Too bad bB doesn't have the tradition of celebrating other people's birthday. Haha.

Well it is now slightly more than 24hours to my PW OP and if I said I aren't worried, I'm lying. I aren't a great speaker, and I'm not putting much effort into it. I'm more into looking forward to the activities after PW but not about PW. I feel awkward speaking English in front of an audience, and for some reason I've been pondering whether to speak English or Chinese to my children in the future. Haha I'm weird.

I went to my grandmother's house today to celebrate my father's birthday on the lunar calendar and had steamboat with the whole family/household/whatever you call it. Well it was pretty plain until the later parts. My mother and my aunt went to Parkway parade for shopping which left me with my father and uncle. Watched PrisonBreak and 24hours before they came back and we had our dinner. I swear I was bored to tears as my father and uncle were sleeping. Was like, so lonely. ARgh.=.=

Talking about loneliness. Being the only child in the family doesn't help much. I'm used to doing things alone and not as sociable as the rest maybe. Sometimes when you get some time alone to do self-reflection, I feel that I have no one to turn to when I'm in need of help or some emotional support. I'm not in favour of approaching my parents because I feel awkward, and sometimes the root of the problem is from them. Haha. I may be able to turn to some of my buddies online, but most of the time I would keep it to myself. Who cares about you anyway? Tell them all you want and they give some replies to pass you off. Imagine sitting in front of your computer at 2am in the dark, you can rarely not feel so. What can help? Sleeping early? No way! You end up thinking more on your bed flipping from side to side trying to get to sleep but end up thinking about all these crap over and over again. Sometimes you get so emotionally tired but just can't get to lala land. Thats a torture. =.=

Enough of this crap. I shall go to sleep(hopefully) now. Cya! =D

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