Friday, June 30

Friday

Haha my exams have finally ended, but I aren't exactly in the mood to party, especially after today's Physics paper.

An overview of my exams.

I had GP on 31st May if I remember correctly. It was an alright paper. At least a C I guess would do it for me.

The next paper was the 1st day after the June holidays, 26th June. Well it was alright too. I wasn't able to do all the questions but I feel I did enough to pass the paper.

The same can be said for Chemistry. MCQ was like alright, although its part B made me feel very uncertain. Paper 2 was much tougher. I(In fact many of us) got stuck at the 1st question. Certainly brought down my moral. I was like flipping the pages until I finally found some momentum to really get engaged with the paper. LOL. Part B of paper 2, I really hope I can get like at least 20marks/30 as it is one of the sections that I have the most confidence.

Ar next was Chinese and Geography. Chinese sucks lar to be honest. Sitting there for like three hours writing simple characters when even primary school kids can own me with their language really sucks. Nothing to talk about. Target. D7; the minimum. Geography. This subject made me think of something. If going JC is a wrong choice. Looking at my Physical Geog notes it certainly was a wrong choice. Just based on that, JC studies can be deemed as a test of your mental strength; your ability to memorise these stupid notes in your brains and reproduce them when needed. Yeah, physcial didnt go too well, but at least I think i can score good for human.

Finally the last paper of the whole midyear exam. However it wasn't a thing to rejoice about.z. Firstly the night before, I was studying the answer key of the physics package.

And after awhile, I realised again that, it was all about memorising again! Then I thought about my classmates, most of them seem to have a hidden agenda for whatever they do. Cliiques a plenty in the class, good for the individuals, but not good for our class. How many class outings do we have? Zero, when others seem to have like tens and thousands of them. After this i proceeded to ponder on, if my choice to PJC, or even a JC was right. Maybe I would be better off in Innova since I have already been there for like 3months? And much time is needed to readapt to a new environment again. I honestly feel that my period in PJC was pretty aimless. I didn't get to make some good buddies partly because my this class I'm in, and sticking to zw and cw at the start. For some reason I feel that when talking to them, I'm just talking nonsense; games and some crap things.

Next, going to a JC doesn't make a huge difference to my live, with exception of that bloody A'Levels cert to set me a smoother and faster way to University. I feel that the things we learn, cannot be applied to out everyday life. Take geog for example, do any Tom, Dick or Harry really go and understand the mechanism of an earthquake or volcanoes and what plates they involve? And what the MOE and teachers have been saying since the launch of the new syllabus, about the new syllabus, you can't do TYS and expect As, is purely bullcrap in my honest opinion. Just 2 months in JC I find out that you can expect yourself to do all the exam questions by doing your TYS. THe teacher is as good as giving you an answer booklet. What really differentiate between a good and a bad student in this hell place, is that whether that guy or girl takes the initiative to study, or what I say, memorize and not your ability.

I realised too that I'm without an aim. I have no motivation to push me on in revising or etc. Maybe like what junqin have said, all these were caused by competition and grades. Maybe the fun starts at Uni(if I can work hard enough) where I start to learn things that are related to me and my live.

That's all for today, CYA!

vvanilla