<body scroll="auto"><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/8909992?origin\x3dhttp://smithrust.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>

Saturday, July 9

saturdae

school politics really make ppl change.to be able to adapt to such a surrounding.when they do this.they often get so ruthless that they forget wat is essential in life.frenship.

when u do this.u challenge urself to do thiings u r not supposed to do.hence.u would not be 'urself'.after a long time.u find urself sitting in a dark room.on ur bed.or mayb infrnt of ur study desk or computer.u would find urself asking urself.which is the real me?

when u struggle to find ur real 'self'.u would find urself tinking abt this qn over n over again.n ask.how n y did this happen?when u treat ur frens with the mentality of 'u die i dun care' or with the 'defensive attitude'.u would find urself.getting more n more lonely.more often alone.u hav no1 u trust to share ur secrets.soon.these things would pile up in ur heart.u find urself so sad.so pathetic.u finally breakdown.n cry.after u cry.u would say to urself.'no.this shdnt happen'.n u get urself 'stronger'.when this happen.u would start to b a 'cold-blooded creature'.

well.dun let school politics or anything affect u.these things really harm us.

im on the verge of breaking down.i cant find the real self.i cant find my confidence.i am feeling very empty.is wat im tinking wat i really wants to tink abt? or was tt forced by all those external effects?mayb this wouldnt hav happened if i was in primary sch but kranji setting where all are so innocnent?

wat happned?

well.crap post.i cant construct my ideas well.

cya`

00:14


vvanilla